Never was I able to maintain, keep, nor update any blog (and they are at least 10 of them) that I have ever started since 2005. None. Nada. Zilch. Zero.
For some reason, I know there's so many things going on my head esp. at those times that I am not in front of the computer either while I was brushing my teeth, I'm seated on "that throne", or I'm walking my way to work. But nothing has ever went out to the zany world of the world wide web, except for the few posts I've made in FB. And I absolutely know my concepts are smart enough I always agree with the Buddha and Einstein.
Ok fine. That does not count. Or does it?
Anyhow... Here I am with complete courage from Wonderland starting out from zero with a more conceptualized vision of what I want my blog to be. Now being 28 I've finally found a lot of things to write about.
Much more to be proud about.
You see, I used to be a woman who loathes herself so dearly I loathed myself every single day thinking that by hating myself I will be able to become perfect. Like hello?! With all do respect with my super-perfect parents (and they are very much! I love them and I thank them with all my heart but I also admit I became who I was because of them, and that's ok =) I'm grateful for having them) like I was saying, "Like hello?!" I think my mum never knew that I needed some encouragement too. There was a time when I was in grade school that I became #8 out of the Top 10 students of the classroom and all she bellied out at me was, "Oh yeah? Why aren't you Top 1?" I never ever heard her became proud of me.
That's why I grew up a very insecure young woman. Back then it was all dark and bleak for me. But that's a different story that requires a new and separate post. ;)
Fast forward 2013, more than half a decade since I heard my mum say that. It's still a small voice sometimes but it doesn't have much power now. So much things have happened and I have learned so much along the way too. I'm a very happy individual because a selfless lady shared her time with me (okay, it was actually a one-on-one meeting with her) nonetheless, she shared a part of her that made me discover who I am now.
She gently asked me how much do I love myself.
And seriously, that question was one heck of a hard question for me at that time. I actually told her I didn't know.
But from thereon I had to reevaluate myself, my perception of myself, and the way I was living my life. At that time I needed to take a hard look at myself and decide to start loving myself... the way this wonderful lady imparts to me her way of loving herself, and the way other ladies love themselves too (e.g. this fine lady, gala darling, melina dean to name a few).
This is the reason why I'm writing this blog. This is my part sharing to everyone who may stumble upon this sort of "diary" and documenting all the ways I love myself and the people around me.
Especially the part where I'm discovering new ways to love myself. This is not the narcissistic kind of love. This is the kind of love that transcends time, space, and boundaries.♥ The kind of love that is fully aware and accepting of the moment.
Though these are my own point of views and I'm not asking anyone to do it if you feel like it doesn't suit your core.
Like the Buddha said:
"Believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense."So... Let's have fun exchanging thoughts and we'll have some knowledge explosion! ☼
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I believe in myself to express my love of myself, and I love myself to express that I believe in myself.
It's a non-dualistic world. :)
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